“I shall sing praises and blessings to your Name, as I abandon myself into your Heart moment by moment.” (emphasis mine) For You are the Love and Mind of our galaxy! –Psalms for Praying by Nan C. Merrill
Abandon: According to the dictionary, the verb tense means “to give up completely (a course of action, a practice, or a way of thinking)”. The noun tense means a “complete lack of inhibition or restraint”.
I read this phrase “abandon myself” and I recoil.
This abandoning myself…let go of all control?
You have got to be kidding me, right, Abba?
Okay fine, but don’t be expecting happy songs here!
This abandoning myself…talk about overwhelming fear.
All the what ifs relentlessly attack me:
“There is no way you can trust Abba’s heart
There is no way he has your best in mind
Don’t let go of control, you’ll only get hurt in the end.
Don’t trust him, you’ll never be able to please him.
Whatever you do, don’t abandon yourself into his heart.”
But then I look at Abba God sitting next to me waiting patiently.
And in my heart I know what I’ve known all along.
To abandon myself into His heart is a beautiful thing.
Abba is Love and Presence.
Abba is not able to feel malice when I abandon myself into His heart.
He only longs for me to know His heart of love moment by moment
I don’t need to work hard to please Abba.
There is nothing that I can do to make him love me more.
Abba doesn’t want me to just give myself to Him;
Abba invites me to abandon myself into His heart.
Enter into a Heart that beats with intense Love for me.
Moment by moment the invitation is always there.
I cannot escape Abba’s Love or His Presence.
I can choose, however, to abandon myself into His heart moment by moment.
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